I can’t believe that today is Ethan’s first birthday. I cried last night after putting him down for the night. Then when I got up this morning to go workout, I realized that it was the same time that I got up with labor pains. Sigh. I’m sad to be losing my baby. With the other two, I was excited for their first birthdays. For some reason, I am taking Ethan’s really hard. Perhaps it is because I think he might be my last child. I hate crying. I’m doing it again. Better close with this link to some pictures of his special day. I’ll post 12 month pictures when I’m more stable.